I don’t think there’s anything wrong with counting change.

I miss you, baby. You’ll forever be in my heart and on my mind. I love you.

“You are mu sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey. You’ll never know, dear, how much I love you. Please don’t take my sunshine away.”

August 2nd, 2008 - July 8th, 2009

I think about you everyday, baby girl. Obviously you were too amazing and pure for the world we live in. I hope and dream that one day we’ll meet again. I know your daddy misses you, and your momma too. I’m blessed that I was privileged enough to know you the short time you were here. You’re beautiful.

Sublime. All time favorite band <3

I’ve always thought that I’d be okay with just ‘getting by.’ I’m not the least bit materialistic, and I don’t really need much to make me happy. But, one of these days I do want to have children. I want them to feel safe and secure. I want them to have everything they want. In a way, I kind of want to spoil them. I don’t want them to turn out stuck up or anything like that, and I’ll be sure to remind them of where their mother came from and how she lived. No offence to my mother, of course. She is the most amazing women in the world. She had to do it all alone, though. I was never neglected, and I always had what I needed. Not everything I wanted, though.

I’ve always thought that I could get some office job. Make just enough to pay the bills, put food on the table, take myself shopping every now and then, Have a car that gets me where I need to go, and have just a little money for leisure activities. I may have changed my mind. I want my kids to have all the finer things in life. When they turn sixteen I want to buy them brand new cars. I want them to have name brand cloths, and fancy phones. I want them to have it all.

Is it too late? I’ve been so set in just ‘getting by’ my whole life that I’ve kinda fucked up all of my options. Smoked too much pot in highschool. Slept through most of it. I got in trouble.. I have a record that prevents me from getting a lot of good jobs. I’m twenty years old and I’ve yet to start any kind of ‘higher education.’ I feel like I’m starting all this way behind schedule. I don’t know.. Just a little thinking.

Jersey, baby <3

• Insomnia is defined as having difficulty falling asleep and/or staying asleep that leads to a negative impact on the next day.

• Secondary insomnia is the symptom or side effect of another problem. This type of insomnia often is a symptom of an emotional, neurological, or other medical or sleep disorder.

• Emotional disorders that can cause insomnia include depression, anxiety, and posttraumatic stress disorder. Alzheimer’s disease and Parkinson’s disease are examples of common neurological disorders that can cause insomnia.

• Secondary insomnia also may be a side effect of certain medicines. For example, certain asthma medicines, such as theophylline, and some allergy and cold medicines can cause insomnia. Beta blockers also may cause the condition. These medicines are used to treat heart conditions.

• Commonly used substances also may cause insomnia. Examples include caffeine and other stimulants, tobacco or other nicotine products, and alcohol or other sedatives.

One site said you should avoid using nicotine, alcohol, and other stimulants after three in the afternoon.. So, I should smoke a bunch of cigarettes and get drunk before dinner? Nice.

Now, I’m a wee bit more educated  on insomnia. Doubt that’s gunna put me to sleep.